Remi's Thoughts

Honestly, by nature i am a loner.. in my youth, i spent long hours in the field alone.. and in the following years, I worked alone in my first jobs. Working nights or days all alone.. yeah.. my family suffered.. ask my wives and children.. and for that i'm deeply sorry to you who were affected by my absence. It does not mean i don't love you.. still..because i do. And I too have suffered the loss of hearing you and seeing you age... It also means i don't communicate in abundance. and I need my silence.. it's where i am with my maker in spirit. I carry a burden in my spirit.. my inner being.. of all of you..as though i can feel your struggles in life and your joys.. family, friends, spiritual children, those I've led to the Lord (thousands) i still feel the burden of fatherhood.. as well, as i experience too God the Father's love for all of you.. and that is awesome! Just i also feel those who are lost and without God in this world... multitudes... having heard the sound.. the cry.. that will one day come from those who will enter the judgement and reside in the lake of eternal fire... how can i bear this sound that rings through my ears.. mostly i shut my heart to those cries.. mostly... So i spend time alone with God... my Father, and His Holy Spirit whom i love so deeply..so grateful to Jesus who made it possible ..whom i'm in love with eternally... To my children and grandchildren... my love..from all my heart.. To those whom i've helped in any way to have some deeper relationship with God.. my love... Remi

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